Moving!

In two days, some men with a moving truck will load up all our worldly possessions, drive the 60 miles across Houston, and unload them all in a new space.

The last month has been stressful, to say the least. Talk about uncertainty! We found a place we loved, but for a number of reasons walked away from the deal as the red flags were waving all over the place. Quickly found another wonderful place that seemed to be calling to us, and it seemed to take an eternity to get the YES we needed and to get all the paperwork squared away. It felt like those fight scenes in movies where they suddenly go slo-mo and then everything speeds back up. Totally out of control.

20170623_184003And now, as we sit among the boxes, sorting and packing, feeling the tension build and taking steps to release it ( like going out for pizza, having pillow fights, watching movies), we are so ready to be there and find the new adventures waiting.

This move, as most are, is a leap of faith. We never really know what we are getting into until we get there, right? We may love the house or apartment, but we don’t know it’s quirks. We may love the location, but we don’t really know the neighborhood, or, more importantly, the neighbors.

We take our familiar possessions with us into the great unknown, and work to make them fit into unfamiliar surroundings. And we do that with ourselves, making shifts and changes to fit into the new subculture we find ourselves in.

What people will we meet? What experiences will we have? Where will this road lead?

I am in the unfolding.

Grace

As I sat at the beginning of yoga class, the teacher read something inspirational from a book, and I  don’t remember anything about it except that it was about grace. When she finished, she asked us to close our eyes and ask  “What is grace to me, today?”

So I asked, and immediately heard, “Everything is all right.”

I wasn’t sure I heard right, so I asked, “Grace is – that everything is all right?”

Grace is KNOWING that everything is all right.”

Not that everything is going to be all right, everything is all right.

EVERYTHING is all right.

Everything IS all right.

Everything is ALL right.

Everything is all RIGHT.

And, in the midst of peace, or in the midst of trouble and turmoil, I KNOW that everything is all right, and THIS is grace.

I have a Bible verse tattooed on my left upper arm, the culmination of 25+ years of being a conservative Christian, the last 12 of those years as an active member of the Christian Motorcyclists Association, where tattoos are common and grace abounds.

“I am saved by GRACE through Faith. It is God’s GIFT.” -Ephesians 2:8

I’ve heard a lot of definitions for the word grace and what it takes to be “saved”, but the only thing I really understood is that it is a gift. I got this tattoo only 4 years ago, when I was on my way out of a bad marriage and out of the CMA. I stopped going to church regularly a few months later.  As I freed myself from the dogmatism of the churches I had been in, I began to find more love, peace and compassion within myself, as well as great gratitude for grace.

I still pondered the meaning of grace. And many times I have wished I didn’t have this tattoo. But now, I know that everything is all right, and that THIS is my saving grace.

Let us be like little children, with simple faith, knowing that everything is all right.

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