Today’s assignment is to look at the name of my blog and my tagline, and make sure it says what I want it to say.
I’ve thought about it, and I am satisfied. I played with different ideas when I started, and it always came back to this. Life is uncertain, and random things happen every day. Even though I love calendars and planning, I’ve realized that I can never really know what is around the corner. And the random thoughts about life? Well, I never know what my next thought will be. Do you?
I am a spiritual being, in a physical body, and am on a journey of self awareness toward enlightenment. I am 57 years old, and expect to have at least 57 more years to explore this amazing world, find continued purpose and enjoy adventure. I am a mother, a grandmother, a partner, a sister, a daughter. I work in the healthcare field but my desire is to find a lucrative way to help people be well, rather than embrace the revolving door of sickness. I also have an organics business, mostly 100% organic skin care and also the best superfoods I’ve found: Sassy’s Organics.
I am here because I have always enjoyed writing, putting my thoughts into words, and this seems to be a good place to do it. I do keep a private journal on Penzu, the purpose of it is to keep me sane. I toy with the idea of writing a book, but so far that’s just an idea. It started one day when I felt that I really needed to express something important. The older I get, the more I realize that every day is uncertain, thus the blog name.
I am going to participate in Blogging 101 and Photography 101 so there should be lots of posts here, for a while.
The assignment for the photograph is home – so here is the sunset tonight over the lake I see out my third floor apartment window.
October is half over. At the beginning of this month I had a few plans, but most of what I encounter is unexpected. Even the plans take their own twists and turns. More and more I realize that I am just along for the ride, and I can cover my eyes in fear or face whatever comes with excitement, even, or especially, the little things.
I took a mosaic class, and here is the result.Not bad for a first project. My teacher is Michelle Patrick. She’s pretty awesome.
I took an online quiz – which movie star are you? and got this result. Fun!
I enjoyed a martini happy hour with some friends.
I completed the hot belly diet in the prescribed 30 days. I lost a few pounds, but it was more of a resculpturing, I think. My belly is definitely hotter. haha. Seriously, I lost some belly fat and feel much better, more energetic. What I’m taking away from the experience is mostly to be more aware of what I’m eating, and how much, no matter what it is. I’m not eating between meals, and now sip on hot water and tea rather than ice water, as it is much better for digestion. But I am back to drinking a cup of coffee in the morning, half decaf. My current favorite coffee and recipe is Bulletproof.
I enjoyed this beautiful sunset.
And… the month is only half over.
The best thing to do when frustration sets in is STOP.
So that’s what I did after writing my last post. I decided not to write, or paint, or work on my organic home business, and just enjoy life. So what have I been doing?
I’ve gone to a couple of social events – dinner, a movie, through Meetup.com.
I took a road trip to Austin last weekend, ate at some great places and spent some relaxed time with my son and some friends. Just driving – alone or with a companionable companion, watching the scenery, listening to music, talking – is very decompressing.
I took a class in mosaics, which was enjoyable, but I’ve decided that I’d rather paint!
I’ve been learning more about Ayurveda, and started a 30 day program to “reset” my digestion – The Hot Belly diet. I’m on day 18 and feeling great!
I’ve signed up for a course through the Chopra Center – Synchrodestiny.
It came to me very clearly a few days ago that what I really, really want to do is get a health coach certification, and make a difference in the lives of people who are seeking wellness rather than embracing illness. Working in a hospital around sick people can be rather depressing after a while. Most of the clientele, at least at the hospital where I work, are in and out, chronically ill, dependent on doctors and pills, not really changing the way they live and really get better. So I am going to start writing down ideas and see where this goes.
Last but not least I’m moving my muscles again, slowly! A little yoga, a few kettle bell swings, walking — the main thing is – RELAX!
What do you like to do when stress has taken over and you need to relax?
I really want to write. I sit down to write and thoughts just muddle around in my brain. What do I think I’m doing? Who do I think I am? I have loads of great thoughts and profundities, but putting it out on paper, or a blog post, seems to be impossible.
I am satisfied with life at the moment, and it seems that it is harder to compose anything meaningful when things are just trucking along. I’m still settling into a new living arrangement, and it is going well, but I am lacking time for creative endeavors. I think about writing an autobiography, or a fiction book based on people I’ve met at my apartment complex, or a children’s book. I want to make beautiful paintings, or take beautiful photographs.
Then there’s exercise, or lack thereof. I sit all day at work and fear my body is going to change shape as a result. Three years ago I had a personal trainer, and muscles, and was running. I feel that my body is softer, and slower, and I fear the consequences. Yet -the motivation isn’t strong enough to make a big change. Or maybe it’s the weather – it is too hot to do much moving. I’ve gotta blame something!
What I really want is to figure out a way to have the income that I have now, or more, and not have to put in so many hours in a windowless office doing work that for the most part doesn’t really help people live better lives. I keep asking the universe, have taken one step this year into a business that is going no where.
I read all the time – articles about taking risks, and living a live that I won’t regret — but my training is in nursing, my life experience has been mothering — and I’m afraid to take the risk of jumping off the cliff into the unknown. It’s a catch 22 – right now I need to go to work so I’ll have money to eat and live, which means I don’t have time to do the things I want to do. But if I didn’t go to work, then I wouldn’t have money to do the things I want to do.
Everything sounds so great on the internet — put your email in here and I’ll send you these great tips on how your life can change for the better. Then I have to spend time unsubscribing from useless lists, or being bombarded in my inbox by things that don’t help.
Anyone out there share my frustration?
Embracing Uncertainty 
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